A perfect world of imperfections

 FEEL LIKE SHIT. I WOULD LOVE TO GIVE UP.  I AM SO SICK OF MYSELF. WHY AM I EVEN TRYING. EVERYONE GETS DEPRESSED I KNOW THIS BUT  WHAT ARE YOU SUPPOSED TO DO WHEN YOU CANT STAND ANY THING  ANYMORE. I AM PHYSICALLY ILL, MENTALLY ILL, JUST MISERABLY ILL. I SHOULD CHANGE THE NAME OF THIS BLOG TO SEVERELY DEPRESSED ANNOYING LADY . ON MOST DAYS I WONT SAY WHATS REALLY ON MY MIND!  WHAT A LOSER I MUST BE TO SIT HERE N COMPLAIN ABOUT THE SAME BULLSHIT. I AM THE MOST UNINTERESTING PERSON. DONT KNOW HOW I KEEP GOING. THIS IS MY BRAIN UNCENSORED. THERE ARE MANY PEOPLE WHO FEEL LIKE ME, SO WHY DO I  ALWAYS FEEL ALONE. IF  THIS SOUNDS LIKE A CRAZY PERSON TALKING IT IS.  SOMETIMES I WISH I WAS TUCKED AWAY.  THIS IS  REAL CRAP I PUT MYSELF THROUGH EVERYDAY  WITH ONLY THE ABILITY TO PUSH THIS DISGUST ASIDE MOMENTARILY. SO TOMORROW I WILL TRANSITION BACK TO MY LIFE ON THE OUTSIDE, WHERE EVERYONE ELSE LIVES. I WISH I COULD PINPOINT  THE CAUSE OF MY SELF LOATHING. THE ONLY PART OF MYSELF I DONT HATE ARE MY FOUR KIDS WHO I KNOW LOVE ME MORE THAN I KNOW ANYONE COULD. I HOPE I DONT DAMAGE THEM AS I DO MYSELF. FOR ALL THE FEAR  I HAVE MANY LAYERS OF GUILT, TOO MANY TO COUNT.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             

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